I've been dealing with allot of different emotions lately. Sometimes I can't even explain why. Sometimes I just feel sad and unsettled. For reasons unknown to me. I know part of this is due to hormones. I worry about finances instead of praising God that we have an income to cover our bills and provide our food. I fret about my weight and focus on the 10-13 more pounds (10 to pre-pregnancy- 13 till goal weight) I have to lose instead of focusing on the 42 I've lost. I get tense, uptight and stressed over the destruction and disobedience of the boys instead of rejoicing in the gift and beauty of them. I've been sad about my boring, brown hair (I miss my blond hair...so,so,SO bad!) instead of thanking God that I have hair. I've felt restricted in what I can and can not eat instead of being grateful that I have good food to eat (I've cut out wheat/gluten, pop and cut back on my sugar intake). I'm just a roller coaster of emotions and I'm getting plain tired of it. I want to be back to normal. This postpartum stuff just plain stinks.
I'll have you know though that I've been taking Fenugreek (mainly started to help with nursing) and I read up on it some more last night. It's supposed to help with hormones and I did have a great day yesterday. Today has been o.k. Noah's been pushing my buttons (big surprise!) but overall I feel fine. Unfortunately, Tim is working again tomorrow (but yay for overtime!) so we really won't have much of a weekend. =( I'm a little disappointed but yet I'm thankful. Tim goes to school next week and his pay check will be really light the week after that. The extra overtime is really needed. So I'm thankful the Lord has provided again. =)
Also- do you think I should cut my hair? I keep getting comments that I look like my mother and it bothers me a little bit (I'll admit it!). I want to look like me. I need a change. Since coloring my hair would take too much upkeep I've thought of cutting and styling it different. Sadly though, Tim loves my hair long. He has tried to convince me that he understands why I want a change and he doesn't care. I don't buy it. He would love it if I was blond again and kept my long hair but the cost is just too much. Why did my hair have to go and change color anyway?! What would you do? I'd love to get some ideas...leave a comment!
Friday, July 17, 2009
Emotions...who needs them?!
Posted by My Life With Boys at 5:47 AM
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Awwww, sweetie...hang in there. Postpartum emotions suck!
I will not try to give you answers or suggestions. I don't think that's what you want. Instead I will tell you that I will pray for you. And I will.
Chin up. The Lord is with you this very second and cares very much about how you feel - he cares about the colour of your hair, he cares that you care what your hubby thinks, he cares that your children are making it a little more difficult, he cares...
Indeed, God is with you, as "queen" just said. Sometimes, life is still hard, though. It's not a bad thing to complain. The Psalms are FULL of complaints as offerings to the Lord. Sometimes in life--not all the time, but sometimes---it's all we can to but complain. Can God be honoured in this? You bet he can. If you're emotinal, down, discouraged, worried, alone.......you're in good company. The scriptures tell us of Jesus, Himself, who felt this way....as well as Paul, Job....the list goes on and on. Jesus wasn't "happy go lucky" in his circumstances, sometimes things are just sad. You're not bad for feeling those things. And don't you let yourself or anyone else make you feel bad for that!!
Things may get better in the morning, next month, or next year.....but He is with you. Though it doesn't fix everything around you, He is there. He knows. Lots and lot sof hugs to you, girl.
P.S. I would love for you to see my blog, I just posted a ton of things regarding a lot of this the other day. I think we're going through a "down" time at the same time. Hope you're encouraged after reading.
P.S. Sorry for my couple of typos. Can't stand it when my fingers don't keep up with my brain while typing!!! ;)
Do not cut your hair. I have done that after every one of my boys and then shortly after I regret it. I always feel better with longer hair. But that is just me.
I color my hair by myself. It is super easy and MUCH less expensive than going to a salon. If you want to go to the salon for the first dye job then you can match it up with something from the store for the upkeep. That might not be so bad, huh?
I know just how you are feeling. It does pass. Just keep reminding yourself of that. Hang in there!!!!
U could color it yourself. I used to do mine when i was blonde. It is pretty easy.
Hi, I'm new to your blog, but I just have to say that I totally understand where you are coming from.
I am 37 weeks pregnant and have had just about enough of my emotions as I can take.
I feel my walk with God has sky rocketed down since I've been pregnant. And it's all thanks to these emotions.
So yes I understand....we just have to remember that this too shall past.
My hair changed color, too...to gray!
All I have to say, is that I LOVED your blonde hair. I know it would cost you more, but it was so gorgeous when it was super long. I would understand if you cut it though. It would feel wonderful to not get comments about looking like you guys( especially Cassie and Courtnie since I get those the most) and mom. I just wanna look like Bethany. Do what will make you happy....:D But you look beautiful with both blonde and brunette hair!
Get light highlights and definitely keep it long! Short haircuts on women who HAD beautiful hair are so disappointing. Yes, I'm a dude with a long-haired SO.
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